I’ve been writing my closeted stories 7 years now. Mapping my dad’s life, how it affected mine, unraveling our complexities. Our journey together began in ’65, almost immediately we embarked on a zig-zagged trek eventually taking us through several states. Maybe the most treasured was when the two of us made our way over seas to London.
Suffocated by fear many times over, I wondered what would truly come of this idea to tell my stories, what it felt like to have a gay dad? I questioned who is this for: Dad, my kids, for me? Really it’s for all of us. I wrack my brain for details, for understanding and truth. Many times I wondered am I done, should I move on?
Not yet accomplished what I’ve set out to do, once and for all I need to come clean… completely.
I’ve just green lighted a documentary with Arielle Nobile of Legacy Connection Films – my video producer. Confirming my choice I came across a quote from Elizabeth Gilbert that made me chuckle. She speaks to creative projects that are wonderfully rewarding but also terribly challenging to complete. The process of writing my Dad’s story, my journey along the way, is painful at times but also rewarding. Time and again I come back to my desk, continue to share my truths because I believe that when we do, that’s when the healing truly begins.
Elizabeth’s wit sums it up for me: “What do I love so much that I don’t mind eating the shit sandwich that comes along with that thing?”
Here we go!